Pressure building up

The pressure is building up gradually as people in my course are starting to stress each other with "How far have u done your revision?" and "Hey, so-and-so finished the whole OHCM twice already!" etc.

Honestly, having missed one whole week cos of my tooth is really putting me at a disadvantage. And I hate it for having such a non-productive one wk during then, cos seriously, I'm starting to get stressed, so much so that it is already affecting my sleep when I need it more than anything else at the moment.

I can be so dead tired, but just toss n turn, with Pneumonia, MI, TB, Lung Ca, AF running in my head again and again and again. Then just when I'm abt to doze off, the most hated alarm rings, and I have to battle with myself to wash up and rush to the hospital again.

Teaching has been alright, but way too much, since it knackers everyone out by the time it strikes 5, and by the time I get home, (cook), eat, wash up etc, it's about 8 pm. And my ward round takes forever, hence, hinders me to go take proper histories from patients (if I ever feel enthusiastic enuff since I'm super sleepy). I'm placed in Geriatrics this time, and it's not easy to have proper patients despite it's this age group which have numerous problems, simply because they're extremely old, and moving them around to examine is very difficult. They're usually weak and drowsy too, and hence, taking histories from them take a very very long time.

I really feel like shit at the moment, and dunno wat to do abt myself. I need more practice, but how the hell am I going to find time for that when the timetable every day is so freaking packed?! And I can't expect myself to be doing calls everyday either, cos we all take turns to do it..and being on call practically means u stay till 10pm and be in hospital by 8. U just hit the beds straight by the time u get home and finish with all the rubbish u have to do.

Sometimes, I just wish Mum's here..so I can save myself some trouble..especially when it comes to food....