Our unknown fate

The parcel my parents sent to me arrived, and my boy was more excited than I was yesterday. I was kinda excited actually cos it's got my yummy milo in there, as well as the angpow my parents specially sent over. Dearie's got an angpow from them too, and I couldn't wait to give it to him...in fact...it was the first thing that came into my mind when I opened up the parcel.

It was great fun digging into the "treasure box" to see what was in there. Goodies, some necessities, my tee which my parents brought to the temple to be blessed, and some paper they got from the temple that tells us about our horoscope for the Year of the Pig.

"Good year for girls born in 1982 to get married"...and I was like "WOW!!!".

Me: Heard that? I should get married this year. So when r u proposing? Hurry up hor!
CG: I don't have a ring to propose
Me: Nvm. U can go buy one now :)
CG: Why not u sell me off instead?
Me: Wei...u rather get yourself sold than to marry me? Ok lor... :(
CG: I don't have the money to marry u. Wait a few more years. When I get to buy a house and car in Singapore, I'll marry u.

Piangz...when's that gonna be? Sigh.. (my senior is getting married to her bf here in Uk this june... super envious..if only i can get married after my graduation too..)

Am glad that my darling's done with his dissertation, and just doing the final alterations for it. He is also gonna start looking for a job here and I am praying hard that he'll get one soon.

I know he's worried about not being able to get one, and wanted to discuss it with me, but it's not easy since I can't help feeling very down abt it whenever he talks abt it. It's all my fault. He tried to talk abt it to me this evening, but when he saw tears whelming up in my eyes, he apologised and said he shouldn't have mentioned anything.

I can't help thinking abt it now, because he'll probably leave before my exams should he plan to go back. I might sound selfish, but I do need him badly during that period...apart from him, I don't have any other mental support here. I've just grown too attached to him.

I'm praying hard that things will go well for both of us. Hopefully we'll both get our jobs in Cardiff, and then we can start planning to rent a place which we can call our "own". We're dreaming of renting a studio with a double/queen-sized bed (to save cost) or a 2 bedroom flat, but we can't work anything out until we've definitely gotten our job confirmation. Please let our little dream come true.