It's here..

Finally, the email I have been kinda waiting for...

An email from my Subdean. But he did not send it to my account, but to my Dad's. I wonder what they corresponded over email. He got Dad to pass me a msg, saying that I have to get myself mentally prepared to go back soon.

Mum suddenly told me over dinner, and it did shock me for a while. That was my first reaction. Why am I shocked? I have been wanting to go back already isn't it?

I am not sad, but I must admit that neither am I overjoyed that I'll be leaving soon. I'm just....just...nevermind..

But I do know that I'm scared. I am. Yet, my fears can't be shown out. So many things, so many questions are going through my mind.

Somehow, I feel as if..I haven't done many things during my break from school...then again, what is it that I have not done? If I have done everything, then why is it I feel this way..? Just exactly..what's wrong..?