Full of thoughts
Just came back from dinner with granny and my family. A simple dinner at Serangoon Gardens Country Club.
Was contemplating if I should have seafood hor fun or hot plate beancurd. I haven't had hor fun for a long time. Love hor fun manz. It's one of the usuals which I will order whenever I'm there. I love hot plate stuffs too..like beancurd, deer meat etc. Yumz. Anyway, I ordered hot plate beancurd and I was enjoying it with my plate of plain rice.
I've been quiet after Jason went back to hostel. I was either in my room or enjoying the feeling of being in my own world. A bit bad hor? I should have talked more to Granny, but I wasn't in the mood today. Was having a mind full of thoughts, with a headache and a sore mouth cos I'm teething..haha..will someone buy me a teether? They are easily available at baby sections or in Toys 'R' Us. Please get those in attractive shapes and colours. It'll be best if it's colourful because I love colours... I told Granny I'm teething and she giggled. I asked her if it's painful for babies when they are teething. She said it's painful, tt's why babies cry. It must be torturing for them because they got so many teeth that's coming out. I can't remember how it was like for me when I was a baby. But I do know babies look darn cute when they have their front teeth growing out first...hahaha..then they will give u that smile..awwwwwww...argh....wanna pinch their cheeks and kiss them. I've got a pic of me in the shower (sorry ah..I was a baby then..so don't anyhow think..no RA stuffs), but I've got no scanner (maybe my brother has one). If I manage to scan it, then I'll scan it and put it up in my blog. :P I look like a cheeky chipmunk..
Feeling very tired. I'll probably doze off in an hr or so. Just waiting for the time to take my medicine.
Jason went for DnD today. I wish I could see him in his formal wear which I chose for him. I'm sure he looks good. I wonder if he gelled up his hair. Hope he takes some pics for me to see. I'm dying to see him all dressed up. Kor's getting married in December, if I get invited, maybe I'll be able to see Jason dressed up cos I'll definitely go attend the wedding dinner with him.
Miss him a lot. Been thinking of what he's doing, how he is etc. I know I've seen him for many many hrs already and I should be thankful enough that he stayed over last night and took care of me while I was having the horrible cramp again. It hurt quite badly and as usual, my parents are nagging about sending me to the gynae. We had a talk about the recent happenings in our relationship. It's good that I managed to say out how I feel about things and I'm glad that he listened to me and that we did not have any heated arguments. I was so afraid that we will start quarrelling again.
It felt like a load off my chest. I have been keeping it for some time. It didn't feel good. And so many nights, I have been very disturbed by it that it disturbs my sleep as well. I get nightmares about them too, so it's quite bad. Can't remember what the nightmares were about, which is good. However, I must admit that I am not back to my happy self completely. It will take some time. At least saying things out is the first step taken to regaining my happy self. I wouldn't say I don't trust my relationship, but I must still admit I do feel a tinge of insecurity and I tend to have doubts at times. It's not easy to regain a strong trust after going through a series of rough patches. That's how I feel, but fortunately, I'm still wanting to give it another shot to building up the trust in the relationship. Is that a good sign? I just hope I'll stop feeling this way soon. I miss those happy times we spent together...I do think about them. Those fond memories brought me tears when I think about them recently, because I don't know if I'll be able to experience them again, but I hope in no time, they will put a smile on my face again.
Was contemplating if I should have seafood hor fun or hot plate beancurd. I haven't had hor fun for a long time. Love hor fun manz. It's one of the usuals which I will order whenever I'm there. I love hot plate stuffs too..like beancurd, deer meat etc. Yumz. Anyway, I ordered hot plate beancurd and I was enjoying it with my plate of plain rice.
I've been quiet after Jason went back to hostel. I was either in my room or enjoying the feeling of being in my own world. A bit bad hor? I should have talked more to Granny, but I wasn't in the mood today. Was having a mind full of thoughts, with a headache and a sore mouth cos I'm teething..haha..will someone buy me a teether? They are easily available at baby sections or in Toys 'R' Us. Please get those in attractive shapes and colours. It'll be best if it's colourful because I love colours... I told Granny I'm teething and she giggled. I asked her if it's painful for babies when they are teething. She said it's painful, tt's why babies cry. It must be torturing for them because they got so many teeth that's coming out. I can't remember how it was like for me when I was a baby. But I do know babies look darn cute when they have their front teeth growing out first...hahaha..then they will give u that smile..awwwwwww...argh....wanna pinch their cheeks and kiss them. I've got a pic of me in the shower (sorry ah..I was a baby then..so don't anyhow think..no RA stuffs), but I've got no scanner (maybe my brother has one). If I manage to scan it, then I'll scan it and put it up in my blog. :P I look like a cheeky chipmunk..
Feeling very tired. I'll probably doze off in an hr or so. Just waiting for the time to take my medicine.
Jason went for DnD today. I wish I could see him in his formal wear which I chose for him. I'm sure he looks good. I wonder if he gelled up his hair. Hope he takes some pics for me to see. I'm dying to see him all dressed up. Kor's getting married in December, if I get invited, maybe I'll be able to see Jason dressed up cos I'll definitely go attend the wedding dinner with him.
Miss him a lot. Been thinking of what he's doing, how he is etc. I know I've seen him for many many hrs already and I should be thankful enough that he stayed over last night and took care of me while I was having the horrible cramp again. It hurt quite badly and as usual, my parents are nagging about sending me to the gynae. We had a talk about the recent happenings in our relationship. It's good that I managed to say out how I feel about things and I'm glad that he listened to me and that we did not have any heated arguments. I was so afraid that we will start quarrelling again.
It felt like a load off my chest. I have been keeping it for some time. It didn't feel good. And so many nights, I have been very disturbed by it that it disturbs my sleep as well. I get nightmares about them too, so it's quite bad. Can't remember what the nightmares were about, which is good. However, I must admit that I am not back to my happy self completely. It will take some time. At least saying things out is the first step taken to regaining my happy self. I wouldn't say I don't trust my relationship, but I must still admit I do feel a tinge of insecurity and I tend to have doubts at times. It's not easy to regain a strong trust after going through a series of rough patches. That's how I feel, but fortunately, I'm still wanting to give it another shot to building up the trust in the relationship. Is that a good sign? I just hope I'll stop feeling this way soon. I miss those happy times we spent together...I do think about them. Those fond memories brought me tears when I think about them recently, because I don't know if I'll be able to experience them again, but I hope in no time, they will put a smile on my face again.
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